Smiling Is ContagiousA simple glanceA dreamy tranceSmiling is contagiousA ray of warmAn ending stormSmiling is contagiousA little twitchA gentle flickSmiling is contagiousSome different feelingAnger recedingSmiling is contagiousA full-out grinLaughing withinSmiling is contagious
CrushesLeading me on, pulling me aroundPulling me up, high off the groundLetting my perspective wander astrayLetting my focus drift awayBelieving in things that could never beAttention-seeking, hypnotizing meJust when you think you've got it figured outJust when you think you've found the one who is devoutIt turns around and slaps you in the faceScreaming, laughing as you lose the raceResulting in heartbreak, closure of the mindBelieving you won't discover another findIt's always an illusion, a trick in your headTo find who you 'love', then wish you were dead
A Suicide SongI've had too muchToday is doneDon't think about life that's just begunGet home, get the ropeDon't have any more hopeI'm going to pull until I can chokeTying the knotControlling the plotKnowing how this story will end: I'll rotSlipping the knot around my headOne thought: soon I'll be deadMaybe after some more red?Slip out of it slowlyGrab the blade off the trolleyThinking about all that's holyOne more thin lineOh, now that's fineNow let's try this one more timeStand on the chairKick my feet in the airWon't have any more pain to bear
When You....When you fall asleepAnd something finds youSomething that binds youSomething that climbs youWhen you turn out the lightsAnd wake up in the skyWake up to flyWake up in the skyWhen darkness comesAnd you find you dieYou find they liedYou find you die
AddictionsIt lies in waitI smell the baitI'd run awayBut it's too late.I feel the painI must refrainJust stop, they sayThere's too much to gain.Hold me nowCome aroundIt follows meI'm already found.To love againWould be the endI'd clean up the messTo come home, my friend.To stay awayJust for a dayKill me nowI'd waste away.Too far to stopJust hit the topCome to me Death,My heart's ready to stop.
DepressionSleeping behind the cool lines of emotionBiding their time, not willing to take a dareGrinning evilly while I try to stay out of commotionGiggling maniacally while I try to see whereFeasting upon the curling cinders of my painDigging its claws into my already cracked heartWatching me as I wait for the rainTearing my life apart
I Don't Feel So AloneI think of youWhen the skies are clearAnd I don't feel so alone.I look up at the sky so blueAnd whisper 'I wish you were here'And I don't feel so alone.I stare at the starsI spot the one we namedAnd I don't feel so alone.I know where you areI feel the love we regainedAnd I don't feel so alone.I curl up at nightI whisper your nameAnd I don't feel so alone.I know life is rightI know it's still the sameAnd I don't feel so alone.
Working ForceI'd kiss your lipsI'd give you tipsBut I'm your working force.I'd love you foreverAnd hit you neverBut I'm your working force.I am your slaveYou whip me to behaveBecause I'm your working force.I dote on youYou say you doBut I'm your working force.I give you my bodyYou give me nobodyBecause I'm your working force.You hold my hand and hug me tightThen tell me I'm the one not rightBut I'm your working force.
I've Just Seen A FaceHe sighed, sprawled on the couch. He reached out for a fluffy pillow, cuddling it under his stomach.I didn't stop playing. The poignant sounds of the piano that normally cheered him up now just seemed to irritate him, especially whenever I screwed something up from my anxiety.After the seventh time I did, he finally lifted his head. "Can you just stop?" he snapped.I did for a minute, caught off guard. My fingers jumped, breaking the complete rhythm of the notes as easily as a mistake on the keys themselves. "You never usually want the sound of a piano to stop." I said hesitantly. I set my fingers against the keys, but didn't play. He buried his face in the pillow again."Yeah, well...." He didn't bother finishing. I already knew the answer.I played a quick riff, pleased when I finally did it right. He flipped onto his back. Normally his big dark eyes were sparkling and charming. Today they were more like black holes, sucking in whatever happiness managed to bring itself in. Instead